I'm Back.

It's has been a long while.

I promised to blog more often, but yet again I had to succumb to the constraints of time.

Baby A is here since the last post. In fact, he arrives three weeks ago. And thus its also time for me to rethink what is important to me right now. What I want to do in the future. 

So I guess it is also THE RIGHT TIME to revive this blog. As I imagine a lot of what I wanna do (if successful) will largely be dependent on this.

We shall see. 

  

It's Time.

A couple of my good friends are exchanging SMS. And here we are talking about pursuing our dreams and passions.

Well, although we met at our work place, but each one of us are at different phase of life. Time, commitments, etc are often the reasons cited not to go ahead and pursue our dreams.

Since starting my scrapping journey and hoarding more and more stuffs, the hub has been very encouraging. He encouraged me to go ahead and pursue my passions -- to start my little online biz selling home made stuffs. I'm so very tempted. But the question is, CAN I?

There are just too many things I need to consider. Kids fees, daily expenditures, etc. But if I don't do it now, will I ever get the opportunity again?

With baby #3 on the way and the much looked forward NPL, this will be THE time or never. After this, I'll be stuck in the old rut of doing same things day in day out.

So perhaps, it's really time!

And to share a little LO I did yesterday to document the inspirations I had after the exchange of conversations with my kakis.

A year has gone by

Time flies. Almost a year has gone by for me without posting anything on this blog.
I'm not a frequent blogger. I blog only when I have the time (1st priority) and have something to blog about.
I have had plenty to blog about during the last year. But time, is simply not on my side.
Reading through my past posts, I realized I missed blogging. There is so much I can document through blogging. Although I started blogging to document my scrappy adventure, blogging has helped to document my journey through motherhood too. I really wish to blog more often.

Perhaps, I should set a routine to remind myself to blog more often. And perhaps, that will be my mid year goal for 2013.

Down Time

The week just flew by so quickly. Without me having the time to really sit down and reflect. Everyday is a mad rush to complete deadlines at work and the body is finally giving way. Have been experiencing sore body aches and migraine, largely due to lack of sleep and stress at work. Work seems never ending and it is getting harder to to find the motivation to carry on.
Luckily, I find peace and enjoyment in scrapping and now, blogging. It gives me an avenue to express my thoughts and stress probably.
I just hope this so called turbulent stage of life will swing by quickly.

And finally!

The much anticipated 12 weeks SSD course has come to an end. It was with great "sadness" as I ended the course today.
At the beginning of the session, I was so unsure of what will the course be like? And now 12 weeks later, I have learnt so much from most of the instructors and also made great friends.
Being the only SSD in the school, it was at times rather difficult and stressful as there is no one you can turn to for help. This group of SSD buddies that I got to know was a great source of help I can find. I am so very glad that we are not only confined to school works, but also other personal interests areas too.
I really look forward to sharing more ideas and working with them in the days to come.

Sticky as Glue

Wow... it has been sooo long since I last post. Well, I finally am back. 
It had been super duper busy at work. We always had plenty to do nearer the end of the year, which is really an irony. Not much time to do anything else after I get back from work. Between trying to spend more time with the gals and the hubby, the time left for anything else is minimum. I am glad I still find some me time in the wee hours to scrap. Well, I have scrapped quite a few LO during the Sept break, but have yet found the time to post it. 
Anyway, want to share a LO which I did sometime back. 

I love these 2 photos of meimei. Haha... one of which is her sulky look and the other is such a sweet smile on her face. Ever since she turned 15months, she had been very very sticky to me (I mean, reallllly sticky) especially at nites or when she is extremely tired. She does not allow anyone to touch or carry her. Nope, her daddy would not do too. So I would practically have to run in whenever she starts crying... and mind you, her cries are deafening. And because of all the running in and out of the room several times at nite, my scrappy momentum had suffered badly. :( 
I like this LO that I created. I had recently seen a few scrappers using twine and some other threads stuff in their LO with really stunning effects, so I thought, why not I tried that too. Hmm... I kinda like the effect that I created using the twine. I guess I am hooked, would be using this layering method more in my future LO. 
A lot have been going on in my mind recently. Need time to consolidate my thinking and reflect and see what I should do in the future. Of course, if I am allowed to choose freely, staying at home and able to scrap full time would really be ideal. But that would not be possible at this moment. I guess I would need to strike a balance in what I need to do and want to do at the present moment. 

So smiley

(Having fun at the Changi Airport)

Mei Mei is one gal who is definitely different from her jie jie. While Atria seldom cries when she was much younger, mei mei is one who screams at the top of her voice. But she is also much more smiley too.

When mei mei is in a happy mood, she is really soooo adorable. Loves the way she likes to interact with people and her eyes will grow wide with delight. She is also easily excitable haha.... I love her smiles too. Always make my heart melt even though I am super stressed with her constant high pitch screaming :(

With her along, I was initially worried whether I will be able to spend equal time with both of them. Since Atria is also rather attention seeking at the moment. I am very grateful to my mum who is always there for us (even on weekends when either the hubby or I need to work sometime) and is showering mei mei with all the love when Atria cling to me. The hubby also played a huge part too. Without his support and being so hands on, I will not be able to juggle my work and family till now.

Time passes so quickly. Mei mei is already coming to 15 months. She is walking rather well now. And its seems like yesterday when I delivered her at home. ...

My Superhero

(some rare moments of fun @ Mac with all her gor gor)
(Gor Gor entertaining her)

(My superhero - Look at her big swollen eye)

2nd Jan 2011.

Atria had such bad eye bacterial infection, coupled with prolonged high fever. (more than 10 days). She was admitted to KKH. As a mummy, I was so super worried about her. The hubby was outstation at the moment. I felt so desperately alone.

My dear Atria did me proud. She did not cry or even made the slightest sound while the nurses get the plug (for IV) on her. I named her my superhero. With the plug on, she was rather limited in the movement and was slightly affected by it. But, she still behaved exceedingly well.

We stayed there for a total of 4 days. She was totally bored as there is nothing much to do there. We must say big thank you to all the aunties and uncles who came and showed there support and they also brought games and videos to entertain her (also relieving me so that I could go and bath or have a short break) :)

Atria survived the ordeal, which I am glad. I learnt so much from my girl. The little ones have such extraordinary strength that the parents cannot imagine. They have grown much stronger (not without the trauma etc) after all these challenges. As parents, we have so much to learn from them. And I am still learning from them every single day.

It's here!

The news that I am waiting for arrive this morning. Well, not unexpected, I did not make it. But strangely, I am not that affected about it. I don't really feel very saddened by the news that I was not successful. Perhaps, it is a blessing in disguise.

After the interview session about 3 weeks ago, I already had the "not-so-good" feeling about it. I was thinking hard about it, maybe this is not really my cup of tea. Having to adapt to a totally new environment is rather difficult for me (like I said, I am reluctant to) at my age now.. hahaha...

Well, just hope everything will turn out fine no matter what lies ahead.

Changes

I am anxiously waiting for some news to arrive. This is the final week which I will receive the news and it will determine the journey ahead.

I am reluctant to make much changes to my work for the past decade. Comfort Zone? I guess so. Human beings are reluctant to change, and so am I. However, with the influx of "initiatives" and "changes" in my work environment, it is seriously time for me to make that reluctant move.

It is a BIG step ahead for myself. Totally not me at all. But I am glad in a way that I did try. Well, the long awaited change might not happen ultimately, but I just do not want to regret in the future.

I am not too sure whether the change will be good or for the worst. Difficult to tell in these times. I am just hoping for the better.

Well, lets just hope whatever news that I will receive will be "good"!

Hoping...

Finally... Its over!!

Last week was a super crazy week at work. Had to deal with all the other peripherals and yet neglected our core business. Last minute additional job assignments (that was not stated in the job spec) and had to deal with all sorts of complaints and requests. Hate this kind of feeling. Felt so lousy at not doing my job right. Brimming with lots to comment on during the AAR.

Well, I am still glad that the major event is finally over. Been talking about it since long time ago and nothing concrete was planned until Feb this year. At least its THE Event of the year, and we should (I hope) we will be able to take a breather finally.

Somehow I don't feel that super excited this time. I used to. Alwyas have the tingly feeling especially during this kind of major events at work. But somehow or rather I kinda lost the feeling. Why? I had a chat with one of my closest colleagues, who, coincidentally also felt the same way as me. Strange. Which led me to rethink about the importance of LEADERSHIP and all the others that come along with it. Wah! What a big word.

I had never had much interest in LEADERSHIP. I am always a reluctant leader, being pushed to be. But this major event and all the other mini ones that came before this, really forced me to think carefully about it.

If I was given a choice again, probably, I will not choose the route I am taking now.

Can I turn back time?

1 week down

It had been a crazy week at work. Had to deal with so many last minute changes while meeting the almost impossible deadline. All because of a major celebration at the end of next week. Somehow, the celebration doesn't have anymore meaning to me. Why so?

To deal with all the ever increasing tasks at hand, colleagues and I went out to have a "feast" on Fri noon time. Ya.. its really a feast for surviving the week with no major "injuries". Ha Ha... well, we kinda of decided to have a "feast" every Fri to last till the end of the year.... This is the bonding we have in times of "crisis" at work??

While dealing with the ever increasing tasks at hand in preparation for the celebration, we somehow neglected the core business we are in. Are we then shortchaining our customers? What is really at stake? I wonder...

I used to be really motivated about work... but somehow I kinda lost the drive this year.... Initially I thought its because of the long break that I took, but it had been half a year, and I still did not get the motivation back. Was it because of the portfolio that I am handling now? I am not too sure. Or can I blame it on my RO for not nurturing me? I do not know. I just hope I can find my motivation for work, in whatever job that I am doing. Wish me luck.