Struggle

Atria is our first born. I think we expect a lot from her. Sometimes too much for her to handle. I know it is not healthy. But somehow we cannot stop.

It kinda breaks my heart every time we need to scold her. But at times, we really do feel the need to reprimand her so that she will behave.

I realize we are not as strict with Astria, always thinking she is still young. But in fact, she is already 2 yo.

I have to constantly remind myself that Atria is only 3.5yo. And it is normal for a 3.5yo not to listen and understand our instructions. But I guess the control freak in me will not be able to restrain my control over the gals anytime sooner.

But it always breaks my heart to see Atria cries as she is not able to "do" what we expect her to do. She is in a constant struggle with herself to meet our expectation.

It is time for us to step back and look at our gals again.